I admire her for every battle scar she decides to show off like medals of achievement and trophies of victory. She is not afraid to surge a life of different faces, seasons, and certainties. Many people look at her as if she does not need any sort of helping hand for they know how many battles she has already overcome, but no one knows what great of a battle she endlessly tries to win every day; every night.
People come to her for hope, because she has been a light to places she set her feet upon. They stare at her success and assume she has a concrete blueprint of how she graced all the things that pushed her on the verge of defeat, but there is none.
She did not know how she did it all.
She is a young woman who repeatedly fights a battle inside her head – a battle of thoughts.
Many times has she deprived her self of peace when she cannot refrain to think of all the moments she has been invalidated. She was surrounded by thoughts of not being good enough, and she could not seem to escape its cloud.
Many times has she locked her self up because life seemed to be crawling out of her despite her desire to get up from fainting. She deserted her self from the world because the belongingness and validation she expected were deprived from her by people she expected to lean on in times of defeat.
She lost her hope that people would see her for who she really is. She got tired of expecting that there are people who will graciously embrace her weaknesses and flaws despite the scars on her facáde.
They see her for what great of a warrior she has been, but not for a weak young woman who is desperately in need of grace.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Life-changing exploits happen in her life every day.
When moments of inner battles occur, her Superior comes whispering, “My grace is sufficient for you”.
Regardless of how rattling her surroundings and even her thoughts may be, grace unfailingly covers her mind and heart each time.
She lost her hope that people would see her for who she really is, but she knows Someone who embraces every aching part of her and He lovingly recalibrates her mind that she is destined for greatness; that she is destined to conquer battles.
With all the battle scars and wounds, she is reminded by them of how faithful her Superior has been though all her conquered battles.
With this grace that she is holding on to, she has hope.