My Kind of Love


I was never perfect. And I will never be.

I don’t know what You saw in me to find me worthy of Your love. The moment I realized how You sacrificed Your life to demonstrate Your love for me, that is when I started asking my self all the why’s.

Why me? Why did it have to me be? Why did the reason for You to step down Your throne to die for my sins had to be me who was a sinner in the first place?

What did I do to deserve Your love?

Many times have I failed to look for love from other people. Those were the times when I needed to beg for them to love me back. The dark years when I fell into the lies that I needed to conform to this world to be accepted.

Until You came..

I saw Your hand reaching out to save me from drowing in the sins of this world. I took the lifeline and found my self comforted by the mighty arms of Someone who could give me the love I was trying to find.

When You came down to die for me to be saved, that was the greatest demonstration of love for me.

You are a King. You could have just lived a perfect life without having to be a human and feel all the pain this world offers and die in exchange of the salvation of Your enemies. But You chose to surrender Your throne in heaven.

You could have just given up after all the beatings and the percutions and just let me be punished to death because of my sins. But you love me enough to stand before me and fight death for me.

You love me enough to accept me over and over again.

You love me enough to patiently wait for me to come back each time I take a step away from You.

I am refreshed to be reminded of the first time I loved You back. It was overwhelming.

That time when I let my self fall beacuse You said so. You didn’t just catch me in Your arms of love, but You taught me how to fly.

I soared higher and higher along with my faith. Only to find out that I wasn’t flying alone because You wandered the whole world with me.

You held my hand through every storm that tried to separate us.

You guided me during those times when I got lost and didn’t know where to go.

You lifted me up when I was getting tired of soaring all the time but not seeing where I am going.

You gave me Your heart. You didn’t hesistate to give me everything that You have.

And I guess, now’s my turn to fight for You.


Knowing God: Prayer and Fasting 2017

As to how I had my week, it was only because of God’s grace that I made it.

But he answered, “It is written,  “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.'”

Matthew 4:4 ESV

The days were never easy.It was a good thing that I have my classmates who were thoughtful enought to bear with my devotion. So I took every opportunity to have quite some time to meditate on my devotion each time they encourage me to be alone bu myself even during breaks.

“Fasting is like climbing a mountain. It’s hard but when you reach the summit you will see things you have never seen before”.

One of my faith goals at the start of the prayer and fasting was to have this discipline to prioritize reading the Bible before sitting my self with novel books. And as I sought God through reading and meditating on His words, it was already becoming a part of my routine to flip through the pages of my bible before looking for the novel book I am currently reading. It might take me more days now to finish a single novel book but it was nothing compared to the revelations of God’s greatness that never ceases to amaze me and take me back to God’s loving presence every time I read His words.

And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

1 Peter 5:10 ESV

I can say that it was really not an easy week for me. There came a lot of battles that tried to distract me from my devotion to praying and fasting for the Lord. I admit there were times when I was really close to giving in to what was before me, but the moment I closed my eyes and asked God for His grace, He sent me this strength and the dignity to keep on standing firmly on my faith.He has always been with me, and that was one of the best things in this week.

Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!

Psalms 34:8 ESV

He proved His faithfulness during the past year, and it was never a mistake to start this new year by praying and fasting, knowing that He will prove His faithfulness once more.
His glory shone right before my eyes every time He reminded me of all the great things He has done.
His love covered me and showered me with the grace to step out in faith and be bold to preach His gospel.

He has strengthened me in every way.

God can bless you with everything you need, and you will always have more than enough to do all kinds of good things for others.

2 Corinthians 9:8 CEVUS06

Though I removed one of my favorite things to do in my routine (that was eating), I didn’t lack in anything. God has provided me with the strength that I needed. Bless His Name, because He gave me the grace to still manage to perform well in school despite my type of fast.I knew it from the start that He will uphold me with His mighty hands as I continue to trust Him that He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Every night, as I attended every worship service in line with the prayer and fasting, God was planting this seed of compassion inside my heart each time I prayed for different points.

I may not be able to notice it but I know that God is up to something about working on giving me the compassion that I need to have towards other people, towards the nation, the campus, and the world.

I am learning to be more eager in praying.

Even in the simplest form of circumstances, I find my self uttering even the simplest prayers quietly.
And I can’t wait to be used by God to touch other people’s lives. That they may see His glory in me. That God would reveal great and mighty things through the words that come out of my mouth. That other people will be amazed by the works of my hands because they were blessed by God’s divine intervention.

He has given me the victory.

He has conquered the works of the enemy in my life.

He has made new things ahead of me.

He has called me to be one of His great and mighty warriors speaking the gospel to every campus, to every nation.

Then Joshua said to the people, “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do wonders among you.”

Joshua 3:5 ESV

My devotion to God doesn’t end here. I know He still has a lot of things in store for me in the future, and I am excited to face them with a strong and dignified sight focusing only to the Lord who upholds me with His righteous right hand everyday.

In Him, I found my worth. I knew my identity. I found freedom. I embraced victory. I claimed His promises.

And I am excited to witness my self grow to be the strong and courageous woman God is molding me to be.

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1‭-‬8 ESV